Dear Lord, Take me Out of the Dark

A REBLOG...

It was April 2011 when I learned I have severe mitral stenosis or commonly known as Rheumatic heart disease. According to the doctor, it is due to untreated Rheumatic fever related with Tonsilitis during my younger age. I don't know how it happened and now, I don't know how to handle it.

My 1/4- my passes for ballooning

My PHC White Card

Everytime I think about of my heart disease, tears filling my eyes. Not because I'm worrying much but because I know deep in my heart, God is healing me. I will undergo 2D echo again on Monday 8/29 to check the status of my heart and to help the doctor decide what medical procedure is appropriate in my case. Hence, I asked God to be my doctor. My faith and my trust never ceases, in His Mercy and power, HE will heal me.That's why I have nothing to say but THANK YOU LORD! I just wanna thank you LORD.Thanks to my ASMSI fellow. Thanks for your prayers! Thanks to my E-Wha Family for your overwhelming support and understanding! God bless us All!It was the same scenario 4 months ago. I was sitting in front of my computer with teary eyes. I was trying to appear normal but I can't stop the liquid flowing out from my eyes. It was the time when I finally learned the status of my heart which according to the doctor, I have severe mitral stenosis. I didn't know what this medical term meant but if I'll base on the explanation of the 2d echo technician and of the cardiologist who read the result, it was something I must be fearing of. Fear not for myself but for my very still young, 2 daughters. It was almost 2 weeks before I overcome that fear. Thanks to my officemates and thanks to MR Shin, my boss, who never failed to remind me of the goodness of the Lord. Mr Shin once said only God who knows your body. How it will function. Therefore, only God can heal it. Thanks to his powerful words. It enlightened me. 

JESUS, MY HEALER through His Ways

It's still fresh in my mind how my boss consoled me during the saddest realization of my cross. He said, "God made you, so He can only heal you".

I believe it so.
God knows every flesh, every vein, every beat of my heart, every cell of my body. That belief was strengthened more when I attended what I call, "A Healing Seminar", in Don Bosco Kalentong. For me, it's a healing seminar since I've heard many testimonies on how the patients were healed from mostly very hard to cure diseases such as Stage 4 Cancer, Kidney Stones, Heart Problems, Goiters, Cysts, Tumors and many other diseases. A Catholic Priest, who is also a Chemist, who doesn't want to be famous and only want to help others through his discovery, shared his knowledge about the power of Sea Salt & Water and of his banana enzyme. He said, "We are created to live long so take good care of your body and don't take away any part of it because God has purpose for it". His words are right as well as the vital information he shared with us.

It's been a week since I've started taking a glass of water with 3 drops of enzyme (given for free), 30 minutes before every meal. I can say, I can feel the health effect. Before, I suffered so much from GERD (acid reflux)  adding so much pain aside from the fatigue and easy tiredness I am experiencing due to my Rheumatic Heart Disease.  Miraculously, now, I can do my normal work without feeling tired and fatigue. And just today, I find out, the blurry eyes are also healed. I can now read the schedule on the white board 4 meters away from my table CLEARLY, yes clearly without the use of my eyeglasses! Last March, I've bought a pair of eyeglasses to ease me with my blurry eyes. Now, I'm not needing them anymore and my headache is also gone.

It's Gods way of telling me that the idea is right. He created me and so through His gift of nature, I can also be healed. 'm more confident now.

To those who are suffering like me, and want to know more about it, just message me. The priest shared his knowledge for free and 'm willing to tell you about him for free also. WHAT WE NEED? virtue of PATIENT. Just like the other patients do.

A Letter for my 2 year Old Daughter

Dear My Baby Butch,

     As the days passed, your papa and I can tell you're really naughty. Last Saturday, you intentionally peed on our Acer Notebook. You know for sure how important that to me, to your papa and to your ate and of course, for you, too. Your papa loved playing Plants and Zombies on that gadget. Once in a while, you saw me having my online seminar on that notebook and sometimes, checking online orders. You and your ate used to watch Cinderella or sing along with nursery rhymes on Youtube videos. I cannot comprehend why you did such thing. However, since I love you, I composed myself and avoided hurting you. I stopped your papa too even though he wanted to hit you to give you lesson. I just asked you to kiss and hug your papa and say sorry so that he will be angry no more which you did. Thus, your papa gave in to your sweet actuation.

    You're such a sweet daughter but most of the time you're really difficult to understand.

Last night, I was having a home service massage from your Lola Minda. You started crying without reason. Since I cannot hug and comfort you, you threw a toy on my face which hit my lips that pained me and left a bruise. Your attitude is really hard to comprehend my dear daughter. You often hurt us, your lola, your cousins, your ates, your papa and I, despite that we love you.

   I can't tell why you're having that tantrums. You know we love you. From the moment you wake up till you sleep, I am surely there to give you a warm hug and kiss as well as your papa and your ate. We oftentimes give you what you desire to see you not to cry.

    I know, you're still too young to understand right from wrong. That's why, I will be more patient to you. We will be more patient to you. We know, when you reach your proper age, you'll learn to understand.

Make It From Scratch: To Make Syrup

Make It From Scratch: To Make Syrup

God's Own Miracle will happen, IN HIS TIME

Last March 18 2011, we held our company annual check-up through Caritas Health Shield. I have no worries that time. I'M VERY MUCH HEALTHY...but that's what I thought...

March 23, 2011- The doctor read the test result. Everything was normal: blood, urine, stool. Hmm...tsk tsk...you  see I was right. I'm healthy I told myself. But wait, there's the xray result. There was a problem. The doctor said. I was afraid. I didn't know what to think and say.

I was required by the doctor to undergo 2D echo. She said my left atrium is prominent. It's bigger than normal. There must be problem with my heart. Troubled, I went to the Caritas staff to request for LOA. I requested for schedule too. The staff said I must have it asap.

April 1 - I went to Caritas for 2D Echo. The schedule was not relayed. I was not in the list for that test. I just said, if I'll not undergo that today, then perhaps by next year. Upon hearing that, the staff who do such method requested me to follow her. She thought that since I'm still young, the test would take not that long. However, she was wrong. She almost spent 2 hours just for that test. The usual 1 hour was extended to 2 hours. Why? Because my case was not usual according to her.

May 2011 - January 2012 - I was a regular patient of Philippine Heart Center. I followed the procedures. I've undergone series of tests. I never failed to go there in every schedule. January 23, the day of my procedure. It was remarkable. My boss has asked his driver to bring me in the hospital. My husband and I went there bringing everything, cash, vouchers, documents, pillows and everything I'll be needing in the confinement. I've readied myself but...I went back home.

I underwent 2D Echo again and 3 doctors said, my case was for open heart surgery. What??? Open Heart.
I was not ready.
I was afraid for my life.
I was afraid for my kids.
I was afraid for my future...
What my life would be?

The doctors said the Balloon Mitral Valvotomy which was recommended to me was not anymore applicable. What? How come? I didn't decide it. The doctors have decided it. They advised it to me. They said it's the method applicable. Were they wrong? I really didn't know.

All the difficulties I've encountered along the way just to make it happen rushed into my mind. After all the long lines I've went through with PCSO to ask for assistance. After long stressful and worrisome months, my case need open heart.

I went home confused. The only thing that register in my mind GOD HAS REASON FOR THIS! I remembered what Fr. Suarez - The Healing Priest has said on the healing mass I attended last January 18, "Nde na matutuloy yang procedures na yan." It happened. In God's own time, HE will give me the reason. HE will heal me.

I will patiently wait for it. For HIS healing hand. For HIS merciful hands to touch me. I fervently pray.

Here I am Again, troubled with ISO

Pile of papers need to update...
Customer drawings waiting to be filed...
Procedures calling for reviews and revisions...
Departmental forms I need to revise...
I've got so much to do...paperworks. Quotations. Sales Orders...Hmmm...Don't know where to start. Audit date fast approaching. I need sometime to refresh then sit down on this multitude of tasks so I could meet what expected of me from the start.
Being a sales staff and a Document Controller is really not an easy task. Every now and then, the phone rings. Inquiries, requests of quotations, taking orders, following-up deliveries, follow-up production schedule, entertaining walk -in clients these are just part of my daily activities from Mondays-Saturday 12:00 noon. I loved my job anyway. I have no complain...what complicates these daily task is my another job description, being a document controller. What a document controller ought to do, I'll share it to you on my next post!

You Took My Sickness and Heal all the Pain...Thank You LORD!

Today, here I am again in front of my computer. Tears filling my eyes. Not because I'm worrying much but because I know deep in my heart, God is healing me. I will undergo 2D echo again on Monday 8/29 to check the status of my heart and to help the doctor decide what medical procedure is appropriate in my case. Hence, I asked God to be my doctor. My faith and my trust never ceases, in His Mercy and power, HE will heal me.That's why I have nothing to say but THANK YOU LORD! I just wanna thank you LORD.Thanks to my ASMSI fellow. Thanks for your prayers! Thanks to my E-Wha Family for your overwhelming support and understanding! God bless us All!It was the same scenario 4 months ago. I was sitting in front of my computer with teary eyes. I was trying to appear normal but I can't stop the liquid flowing out from my eyes. It was the time when I finally learned the status of my heart which according to the doctor, I have severe mitral stenosis. I didn't know what this medical term meant but if I'll base on the explanation of the 2d echo technician and of the cardiologist who read the result, it was something I must be fearing of. Fear not for myself but for my very still young, 2 daughters. It was almost 2 weeks before I overcome that fear. Thanks to my officemates and thanks to MR Shin, my boss, who never failed to remind me of the goodness of the Lord. Mr Shin once said only God who knows your body. How it will function. Therefore, only God can heal it. Thanks to his powerful words. It enlightened me.