A Letter for my 2 year Old Daughter

Dear My Baby Butch,

     As the days passed, your papa and I can tell you're really naughty. Last Saturday, you intentionally peed on our Acer Notebook. You know for sure how important that to me, to your papa and to your ate and of course, for you, too. Your papa loved playing Plants and Zombies on that gadget. Once in a while, you saw me having my online seminar on that notebook and sometimes, checking online orders. You and your ate used to watch Cinderella or sing along with nursery rhymes on Youtube videos. I cannot comprehend why you did such thing. However, since I love you, I composed myself and avoided hurting you. I stopped your papa too even though he wanted to hit you to give you lesson. I just asked you to kiss and hug your papa and say sorry so that he will be angry no more which you did. Thus, your papa gave in to your sweet actuation.

    You're such a sweet daughter but most of the time you're really difficult to understand.

Last night, I was having a home service massage from your Lola Minda. You started crying without reason. Since I cannot hug and comfort you, you threw a toy on my face which hit my lips that pained me and left a bruise. Your attitude is really hard to comprehend my dear daughter. You often hurt us, your lola, your cousins, your ates, your papa and I, despite that we love you.

   I can't tell why you're having that tantrums. You know we love you. From the moment you wake up till you sleep, I am surely there to give you a warm hug and kiss as well as your papa and your ate. We oftentimes give you what you desire to see you not to cry.

    I know, you're still too young to understand right from wrong. That's why, I will be more patient to you. We will be more patient to you. We know, when you reach your proper age, you'll learn to understand.

Make It From Scratch: To Make Syrup

Make It From Scratch: To Make Syrup

God's Own Miracle will happen, IN HIS TIME

Last March 18 2011, we held our company annual check-up through Caritas Health Shield. I have no worries that time. I'M VERY MUCH HEALTHY...but that's what I thought...

March 23, 2011- The doctor read the test result. Everything was normal: blood, urine, stool. Hmm...tsk tsk...you  see I was right. I'm healthy I told myself. But wait, there's the xray result. There was a problem. The doctor said. I was afraid. I didn't know what to think and say.

I was required by the doctor to undergo 2D echo. She said my left atrium is prominent. It's bigger than normal. There must be problem with my heart. Troubled, I went to the Caritas staff to request for LOA. I requested for schedule too. The staff said I must have it asap.

April 1 - I went to Caritas for 2D Echo. The schedule was not relayed. I was not in the list for that test. I just said, if I'll not undergo that today, then perhaps by next year. Upon hearing that, the staff who do such method requested me to follow her. She thought that since I'm still young, the test would take not that long. However, she was wrong. She almost spent 2 hours just for that test. The usual 1 hour was extended to 2 hours. Why? Because my case was not usual according to her.

May 2011 - January 2012 - I was a regular patient of Philippine Heart Center. I followed the procedures. I've undergone series of tests. I never failed to go there in every schedule. January 23, the day of my procedure. It was remarkable. My boss has asked his driver to bring me in the hospital. My husband and I went there bringing everything, cash, vouchers, documents, pillows and everything I'll be needing in the confinement. I've readied myself but...I went back home.

I underwent 2D Echo again and 3 doctors said, my case was for open heart surgery. What??? Open Heart.
I was not ready.
I was afraid for my life.
I was afraid for my kids.
I was afraid for my future...
What my life would be?

The doctors said the Balloon Mitral Valvotomy which was recommended to me was not anymore applicable. What? How come? I didn't decide it. The doctors have decided it. They advised it to me. They said it's the method applicable. Were they wrong? I really didn't know.

All the difficulties I've encountered along the way just to make it happen rushed into my mind. After all the long lines I've went through with PCSO to ask for assistance. After long stressful and worrisome months, my case need open heart.

I went home confused. The only thing that register in my mind GOD HAS REASON FOR THIS! I remembered what Fr. Suarez - The Healing Priest has said on the healing mass I attended last January 18, "Nde na matutuloy yang procedures na yan." It happened. In God's own time, HE will give me the reason. HE will heal me.

I will patiently wait for it. For HIS healing hand. For HIS merciful hands to touch me. I fervently pray.